It's been a while...

My life, as usual, is in topsy-turvy... as much as I want to publish what is in my mind through Facebook or Twitter I gave myself with no choice but mum. I don't want to be regarded as an "emo" again. I hate it. Despite the fact that deep inside me, I am indeed an emo. I am an emotional being.

So many things had happened in my life and believe it or not, I am almost 26 but I am still lost. Tragic, eh? Or perhaps this is just all because of how my brain works... I have become so afraid with my mind, like Dr. Spencer Reid, I guess there is nothing more frightening than being scared with ones mind. How tragic.

There are so many things I would like to do in my life but I am always restrained by the dictates of the society. I know, I really don't have to submit myself to the standards the society had set, but it is my duty, as a human being, to cohabitate with others regardless how superior or inferior they are to me.

For the moment, as Gavin Degraw slaps the "Not Over You" song to me, I recoil to my safe zone for comfort. I am too afraid to face reality but I am so tired of retreating to my dreamworld.

"No matter what I say I'm... not over you..."